Why are you so scared?
Why are you most afraid of?
Why don't you try giving your level best once again?
It's a known fact that you have failed thrice, which has resulted in great disgrace to you and your family. Just because you have failed on three occasions doesn't mean you are going to fail again. The best part about hitting rock bottom is the only way from there is up. You have to accept the fact that you have failed on numerous occasions, that you have let down your family, your well wishers and mos importantly yourself, that you got lost in the pursuit of your dreams, that you let pettiness get the better of you.
I am cognizant of all these developments. I have been there on all these occasions. I have died a thousand times so much so that each time my self-esteem hit rock bottom, it ended up creating a new low. I have been a victim of my bad decisions. I have been a victim of my fear of failure. All this while I harbored a fear of failure dreading how my life would turn out to be if I failed. Guess what? Despite being over-protective and extra-conscious, I still failed big time not once, not twice but thrice. Naturally, the whole idea of shielding me against my fear didn't seem to work out. I have nothing to fear but fear itself. This fear of mine has only proven to be detrimental - stripping me of all my self-confidence, breaking my spine, bending my knees and humiliating my soul. After being subjected to so much humiliation time and again, I fail to understand why I seek "comfort" in the arms of fear.
About time, I break up this relationship and stop being clingy to my past. Fear is an inevitable part of our existence. We could either dread it and mend our ways to avoid getting hurt, which eventually would turn out to be a farce OR we could acknowledge its existence and yet carry on with our lives like today is the last day of our lives.
I started off as a promising candidate in the school called life. However, somewhere down the road, I lost sight of my goal and started wandering in a swamp hoping someday the swamp will get lose grip of me and I will be set free. Truth be told it ain't happening. Until I take the driver's seat, the auto-pilot will never take me to my true destination.
I have had enough of comforts all my life and enough of entertainment to ease my passage through all difficult times. This however can not continue forever. I will have to give my 100% for the last time and see how things turn out.
My Physics coaching faculty once said, "Zindagi mein kabhi na kabhi kahin na kahin kissi na kissi cheez me apna 100% zaroor dena". I am confident this is the final call for molding my life the way I always wanted to.
I am 100% devoted to give my heart and soul to this endeavor of mine. May the force be with me. Amen.
Why are you most afraid of?
Why don't you try giving your level best once again?
It's a known fact that you have failed thrice, which has resulted in great disgrace to you and your family. Just because you have failed on three occasions doesn't mean you are going to fail again. The best part about hitting rock bottom is the only way from there is up. You have to accept the fact that you have failed on numerous occasions, that you have let down your family, your well wishers and mos importantly yourself, that you got lost in the pursuit of your dreams, that you let pettiness get the better of you.
I am cognizant of all these developments. I have been there on all these occasions. I have died a thousand times so much so that each time my self-esteem hit rock bottom, it ended up creating a new low. I have been a victim of my bad decisions. I have been a victim of my fear of failure. All this while I harbored a fear of failure dreading how my life would turn out to be if I failed. Guess what? Despite being over-protective and extra-conscious, I still failed big time not once, not twice but thrice. Naturally, the whole idea of shielding me against my fear didn't seem to work out. I have nothing to fear but fear itself. This fear of mine has only proven to be detrimental - stripping me of all my self-confidence, breaking my spine, bending my knees and humiliating my soul. After being subjected to so much humiliation time and again, I fail to understand why I seek "comfort" in the arms of fear.
About time, I break up this relationship and stop being clingy to my past. Fear is an inevitable part of our existence. We could either dread it and mend our ways to avoid getting hurt, which eventually would turn out to be a farce OR we could acknowledge its existence and yet carry on with our lives like today is the last day of our lives.
I started off as a promising candidate in the school called life. However, somewhere down the road, I lost sight of my goal and started wandering in a swamp hoping someday the swamp will get lose grip of me and I will be set free. Truth be told it ain't happening. Until I take the driver's seat, the auto-pilot will never take me to my true destination.
I have had enough of comforts all my life and enough of entertainment to ease my passage through all difficult times. This however can not continue forever. I will have to give my 100% for the last time and see how things turn out.
My Physics coaching faculty once said, "Zindagi mein kabhi na kabhi kahin na kahin kissi na kissi cheez me apna 100% zaroor dena". I am confident this is the final call for molding my life the way I always wanted to.
I am 100% devoted to give my heart and soul to this endeavor of mine. May the force be with me. Amen.
